Tuesday, May 13, 2008 ♥ 8:57 AM
dream turning into a nightmare
songinmyhead:all at once-the fray
hey. im tired very tired. everythings is piling up and i cant seem to stop it. the deadlines for my projects are coming soon and yet i cant bring myself to start.actually i want to but nothing is getting to me. my brain juices are drying up. pop quizes are a killer esp when i cant revise with everything going on. and i ran out of ink for my printer. i miss my friends and yet school is taking up my time and energy to hang out. i hardly talk to my parents cause my routine now is wakeup-school-eat-research-sleep. yes every sec of my life revolves around school. dont get me wrong i love school but... hai.. and to add to my worries stupid ccn day had to come at a wrong time. with hardly any support from other classmates, the lovelies had to take action. too add to our problems would be the fear of it backfiring on us. dear rach, do not let this stupid day get to you.
so yea as you can tell lifes been great. not.what can i do.
im tired but i cant quit.
i wanna rest but the worlds pushing me to run.
im out of breath but i cant pause.
yes my life sucks. without my lifelines(family,dcg,lovelies) my life is reduced to its nothingness. emo thoughts engulf me but i know better. waterworks cant seem to stop when i think where im going. when i think of the oppurtunity i had entering this course i wondered if i made the right choice. life is full of questions but there is no answer. at least i dont think there is. walking away seems do be a great thing to do now but not the right one. hai. WANTED: a new life for me. sighing seems to become a habit for me even as i begin my day.
sometimes the hardest things and the right things are the same.
tcl
nadya